Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Unintentional Silence

Hey Hey Friends!

Your girl is still alive, and believe it or not thriving. My blog is something that has been weighing on my heart a lot lately. In the past year I have let it go because I struggled with what content to share and if I even still had an audience for it. Then I realized I started this blog to document my journey so that I could reflect back on things, moments, and seasons in my life that have led me to where I am today. Obviously I have not been very good about that, haha! So in efforts to catch everyone up here it goes:

To date I have lost over 240 lbs through diet and exercise. Believe it or not I still have people that do not believe I did not have a gastric surgery, but whatevs.  One thing I pride myself in is being 100% honest about my journey.  I have fallen in and out of love with running. I have ran countless half-marathons and a full marathon. I fell in love with lifting weights all over again...its my therapy. There is something about totally exhausting yourself at the end of the day that keeps me going. I have learned one thing thus far...I can only control myself therefore there is no excuse for my nutrition and workouts to not be on point. I am currently still counting macro's (IIFYM) and have for over 2 years (Thanks to Poppy Locks). It allows me to eat in peace. This for me is huge because I still struggle with binge eating (which will be a later post).

Over the past year I have had 3 surgical procedures with Joshua Lemmon, MD at Regional Plastic Surgery in Richardson, TX. These procedures are something that I really had to think long and hard about. In May of 2018 I had a lower body lift done to remove excess skin from my abdomen and back. That procedure resulted in 16lbs of skin being removed and required me to stay two nights in the hospital. I did indeed have wound breakdown complications with this procedure thank landed me in the house almost all summer. In November of 2018 I had a bilateral brachioplasty (arm lift) as well as a mastopexy with breast augmentation (again just keeping it real).  All of these of course fixed the issues that I had due to extreme weight loss. I get asked over and over about them and judged frequently. They were the missing puzzle piece to giving me my life back. I would do them over and over again and I can not say enough good things about my plastic surgeon or my experience!

I am currently in the homeward stretch of reaching my ultimate goal weight. which in the beginning never seemed imaginable. For once in my life I am happy! I am happy with the woman I have become and I love life. Throughout my young adult life I associated happiness with being skinny and being small. What I have learned is that happiness is created by YOU regardless of your shape, size, financial situation, etc... Your outlook on life can move mountains. Being "skinny" is not something you can offer this world. What you can offer is kindness and love. Friends, love yourselves no matter what part of your journey or life you are in...give yourself grace. Remember it may be a bad day, but it is not a bad life!!

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Simplifying Your Success

I frequently get asked "how to you do it all"..... I am assuming what they want to know is how I juggle all aspects of my life... and to be honest sometimes I have no clue! hah! Periods of time pass where I feel like all of the days run together!! School has started back and another summer has come to a close. In the past I always hated having a new id picture made...but these days...new picture, yes please! I do not think I ever thought I would look younger as I aged! There are so many things to be thankful for! My health being one of them.

I always miss being able to be out in the sun by the pool however I desperately need structure! This post is geared to several things that have made my life easier while keeping me motivated! Back to school means back to meal prepping!!! This is my number one key to success. It is so much easier to go about your day without having to worry about what your going to eat. This week I made a Zucchini Lasagna (Thanks SkinnyMeg!!). It consist of Zucchini (instead of noodles), ground turkey, maranara, cheeses, and seasoning. It is so good and is perfect to prep for the week. I divided it up into six servings at 275kcal 19C/9F/29.5P.
I always prep my breakfast, lunches, and snacks for each day. The night before I log all of it in myfitness pal. That way the next day I know exactly what I am working with. Dinner is usually a little tricky. I try to just play with my numbers to make sure I am within my +5/-5 macro window. I always aim to reach my protein goal first. I continually remind myself: you can not outwork a bad diet!

Secondly, exercise is key to me. I don't look at it as a form of punishment. I actually really enjoy it! I have several half-marathons coming up so I am building my mileage up and this time I am not letting my weight lifting go! I set aside time 6 days a week for my workouts. The times may vary (which I am not a fan of)... however I always make sure I get them done. On my rest day I make sure I am still active! After re-evaluating my macro numbers and workouts I had a loss last week which was so refreshing! Sometimes you just need to reset your metabolism! 
My next piece of advice is to breath! Take time to enjoy the small things. The time is going to pass anyways. It is so important to make it worthwhile! 

Saturday, July 8, 2017

My Weight Loss Story, YEAR TWO!

It's hard to believe that my blog came to life over a year ago. I remember at the time I was so nervous to post anything about my journey for fear of being judged and what others would think. I honestly feel like I am so hesitant to post things sometimes because I don't know what others will think...hard to believe I know, it's like how much info do you really share? This past year has been an absolute whirlwind! I have tried things I never thought my body would have been capable of and to date I have lost around 152lbs since starting my weight loss journey in June of 2015. It's crazy for me to think that I have lost a whole person...I am almost to half of my starting body weight. I get asked all the time...how did you do it? What did you take? What did you have done? I can 100% tell you that all of it has come from hard work and dedication and that is something that I take pride in. I haven't used any fancy products shakes, or pills to achieve the weight that I currently am at. My advice to anyone would be monitor your food intake and simply move more. Because...we all know that couch or chair (in my case) isn't going to get you where you want to be. I thought it would be nice to take a blast back to the "chair" picture which is what triggered it all.

I am currently still counting macros and logging all of my foot in my fitness pal. I still struggle and I feel like I always will with wanting food that I do not need. I guess I would say I am more impulsive with it than anything else. However over time it does get easier. I am currently eating 1535 kcal a day still seeing a loss. It is so hard for me sometimes because the weight obviously is coming off a lot slower and ideally I really want to loose another 50lbs which would put me at 200lbs lost. This is an attainable goal however it will just take some time. I do hope to reach this goal within the next year..so by June 2018 pretty much. Aside from all of the weight loss I am still very thankful for...it is still easy for me to be critical about myself! I have extra skin and stretch marks like most everyone who has gained and lost a lot of weight. Skin removal surgery is something I will consider once I reach my goal weight. For now I am just blessed that I am able to do things I haven't done years. I feel free! I am free to live my life without restrictions and I can honestly say I have never been happier. I can jump with my little one, chase after him, and have him talk to me about wondering when he will be big enough to run with me! Setting an example for him has been the best thing that I could have given him!

This year I have also found a passion for running. It is a love/hate relationship but to me it is oh so rewarding lol. This year I have ran 5 half-marathons and I honestly have lost track of how many 5ks. I PR'd (personal record) my 5k time and have finally broken my 10 minute mile on several occasions. I have dropped my mileage some this summer because I just needed a break however I am stilling lifting and working out 6 days a week in the gym.
I do have to say that the Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon has been my most favorite so far. The community support, course, all of it was fantastic! The next one I am signed up for is the Route 66 , I Half in November, I will have to start building my miles back up within the next month or so!

2016 went by with a flash and I can not wait to see what happens over the course of the next year, no matter the outcome...I have to remember my "whys". 
Why I started, Why am I doing this, Why is this important to me. 

My number one reason is: Because I'm Worth It!

It is ok to love yourself, and in turn take care of yourself. You are worth so much more!

You are worth it!

Friday, April 7, 2017

Face to Face Friday Y'all

Sometimes it just important to reflect on where you started...no matter the journey. It does not matter the catalyst that starts the reaction but please if your on the fence JUST DO IT! Start! Make small changes! For years I followed all of these awesome people on fitness journeys, healthy life style bloggers, you name it. By years I mean at least 4! You would think after following some of them that long I would actually jump on that bandwagon...yea no...I just observed...thinking I wish I could do this, there is no way, it is too hard, I have no one to watch my child, I am too tired...and the list goes on and on..ya feel me? Finally it took me being fed up with feeling like crap day in and day out. Sometimes I fell like I had to hit rock bottom to redeem myself, and by rock bottom...I mean bottom of the barrel. This little gem below is not even me at my heavest....but you know...you have to start somewhere?!?!?!

I am constantly creating new goals for myself in order to keep me motivated...I feel like that is one way to keep me in check and allows me to be able to accomplish my goals. About a year ago I ran my first 5k. I trained for 4 weeks and did not do anything the way I should have. The first time I had ran on the asphalt was race day. Needless to say now I can not stand the treadmill! It could be freezing or pouring rain and I would still rather run outside. I quickly found that running to me was an emotional task and one that I was eager to get better at. Almost all of my training has taken place with some of the best ladies around and that I am forever thankful for. I can't wait to see where another year of this journey takes me and how many miles I run.

The weather has been awesome lately and its race season! I am still obsessing over macros and thought this meme was accurate. Sometimes counting macros has me feeling like a mad scientist!

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Weekend Recap!

  Weekends always seem to go by entirely too fast! This weekend felt just the same. First thing Saturday morning I had a 5k to run that was rescheduled due to bad weather. This is the first 5k I had ran since October. My time improved tremendously and I set a new PR...33:10..oddly enough I knew that I could have pushed myself harder...Nonetheless I placed 1st in my age group...so holla! Its nice to see hard work paying off..even if its when you least expect it.

After the race we went out of town to take Little B to see Paw Patrol Live, it was such a cute show and it is always nice to travel to the land of Starbucks and good shopping. We had pretty good seats and it was an awesome facility.  The story line was adorable and B loved it.
 In the past I would have gorged on every meal I thought I needed, then after starting a healthy lifestyle I probably would have panicked at fear of gaining weight...well fast forward a year and I am happily living my life and making healthy choices that I know will help me accomplish my goals. First up is my favorite macro friendly Starbucks drink: Iced Americano with soy and a sugar free syrup (cinnamon dulce).  My other go to favorite meal when we are away is a fuji apple chicken salad from Panera. I always ask for the dressing on the side, tons of great flavor. I pair it with that acai berry green tea (unsweet). Now don't get me wrong...I ate an amazing Red Robin hamburger for dinner Saturday night...but it was accounted for with my training throughout the week.

 After getting home late from being out of town I knew I had to do a little bit of meal prep to make it through the next couple of days.. especially breakfast. Which enters Lil Buff Bakery protein cake mixes! They are amazing, easy, and help me reach my daily macros like a champ. I made these into blueberry muffins and will be eating a serving for breakfast each day! Warm them up for a few seconds and money!

Friday, January 27, 2017

Friday Fav's

Here are some of the things that I'm currently obsessed with some fitness related and others aren't, but I love them so much I thought I would share!
First off....The Polished Loft...obsessed! It's a local boutique that I love: stylish and affordable. This cardigan is the perfect transition piece to spring and is paired with a Ruby's Rubbish t-shirt. The fit and fabric of this tee is perfection! Both of these pieces are purchased from there. The owner is absolutely precious! You can also order online via her facebook group for any of you that are not local.
My underarmour gym bag is always riding shot gun! I love all the room. It even has a wet compartment so I can keep all of my other goodies dry (like my beloved lifting binder and gloves). It does not hurt that they have tons of funky patterns and colors. 

They were giving out dill pickle flavored cashews at the Route 66 half...I ate a package and I was hooked! So yummy, and I love the flavor. Of course cashews are a little high in fat but thanks to macros, I can totally make this little snack fit. I found these at target and I stocked up!

Advocare Spark is always a must have for me, I do not use it every day...but some days I just find myself dragging ya know? This little pick me up will do the trick every time. Pictured is the lime-aid flavor and its not my favorite but I am definitely not letting it go to waste. 

Light Hot Chocolate oh how I love you!!! Seriously curbs my sweet tooth and for those that know me well know that I have one! I may/may not have been drinking a cup of it every night for well over a week,lol! I bought these on amazon :).

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! 

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Thursday, January 19, 2017

The Good Life

Over the past couple of weeks I have been asked several times what has happened with my blog, I guess all I can say is life has happened...leading me to wonder if I was still completely sure if I wanted to share so much of my journey with you guys. You see with sharing things comes judgement, something that I like to stay away from because everyone's story is different, it will not unfold the same...so why harp on it? I am ok with constructive criticism however I am not ok with people doubting the progress or hard work that I put in. I promised I would be 100% real, and I have been. I mean jeez...I've said on several occasions that I have cried over CHEESE! So I will leave it with this, if you ask me a question about my lifestyle or progress the answer I give you will be the truth. 

Since deciding to do my first half marathon back in September I feel like I was so zoned in on that goal I let some other things slide. All I thought about were miles, miles, and more miles. I let go of some heavy weight lifting and went with cross training and building my mileage. I ran the Route 66 Half in Tulsa, OK in November. It was probably one of the hardest, most life changing things I have ever done for myself. Not to mention I had ran the distance before, but this was a whole different level of running to me. First off...the hills...OMG! Killer! Then I didn't factor in the weather, it was COLD. I had been running in tank tops and crops. I also worked myself up over following different pace groups. I did not finish in the time that I hoped, but thats ok...this was my first and definitely not my last.
I have the best group of friends and we all made it a goal to train together. We had the best weekend, spending time with our husbands and each other. These women....are everything. I have never been around so many ladies that would rather lift you up than tear you down. They are my lifeline, and sanity outside of my family. My tribe honestly is the best. Running across that finish line holding Tara's hand felt like I had a new lease on life. She has pushed me, molded me, and showed to me that I could love myself again...no matter at what weight or fitness level. She was/is just what I need...a little bit of strict with a whole lot of care and the fact that she listened to me sob at mile 10 means a lot, not because I was tired, or hurt, but because I was doing something I never dreamed imaginable for myself.

Since running my first half I have committed to running 3 more half-marathons in February and March. I am still wondering..do I have a full in me? I hope to complete that in April...we shall see :). 
I am really excited about the Rock and Roll Half Marathon in Dallas, TX. I heard that it was an awesome one to run in..so here goes nothing.

I am still loving counting macros, over the holidays I only lost a few pounds and I ate what I wanted to within reason. It was nice to have a little bit of a mental break from weighing and tracking everything, but I am back to weighing and tracking. I need structure and I am down to the nitty gritty. I can not wait to get to where I can maintain and focus more on body fat percentage and physique. On one of my macro groups the ladies have been raving about this high protein, low carb,low fat angel food cake...and it was bomb! Super filling too...It was a nice little treat to curb my sweet tooth.

So here it is, 2017 and I am going to make it the best year yet. Its time to get stronger, and faster. With a new year comes a new set of goals...and pushing out of comfort zones. Bring it on!