Thursday, July 7, 2016

My Weight Loss Story, One Year In

    As long as I can remember I have always super puffy pink heart *loved* food. Also as long as I can remember I have always had an issue with my weight, I would crash diet try the newest fad and then gain every bit of it back and then some. All of my adult life I have been overweight. In 2011 my husband and I found out we were pregnant with Brantley. Children were always in our future however I kept telling myself I wanted to loose weight before I got pregnant to avoid problems ...well guess what..I didn't! Big shock. I had not kept one promise to myself dealing with weight loss. EVER. While I was pregnant I gained around 70lbs and for someone who was already considered obese...that was the last thing I needed to do..and yet I was still oblivious to the real problem, my addiction with food. Yes  I said it. I have a problem with food. Every emotion imaginable I would eat, and eat, and eat some more. I had tons of problems while in labor with my son, most all of them stemmed from me being severely overweight. Of course at the time I made up 1,000 other excuses as to why all of this was happening. The months, even years following delivery I was unhappy, miserable, and depressed. I couldn't stand the person I had become. I was sick ALL the time, I hurt all over, and I was tired. I would sweat through my clothes and everything else was ALWAYS everyone else's fault! I was unhappy. My husband always takes pictures and snapped this gem of me...
That chair right there...is supposed to fit two people and by the looks of it I filled that thing up with my big ol' fat butt. This...was still not enough for me to change..over the next year I began to follow fitness blogs and envied all of these amazing women accomplishing all of these amazing things. I wanted to be like them..but didn't know how. However I knew I needed to pull up my big girl panties and figure it out! My child, husband, family...they all deserved better. I deserved better! I fianlly opened up and told my mom how much I weighed, with tears in my eyes I felt so helpless and scared. I was 27 years old and I had to make changes, changes I was not sure if I was even capable of doing on my own. The next week I went to SNAP (our local gym) where I met Tara, someone whom I have known all my life but had never really had a conversation with. She listened, she made me set goals, and she showed me the ropes of the gym. Over the past year she has given me so much but most of all I cherish her friendship. She has been there, even when I was crying because I could not eat queso dip at a mexican restaurant (yes..legit crying over cheese). We worked out almost every day together last summer. After starting to workout I knew I needed a complete overhaul in my diet. So I started eating Paleo. My first goal was to lose 30lbs in 3 months, those 3 months flew by and that was one goal accomplished. Since then I have ran 5k's, I lift heavy, I go to yoga now 3 times a week, and I have lost over 120lbs. I now count Macros (which will be another blog post) and follow a lifting schedule. I am in the gym 6 days a week and log all of my food.
You see, I am no where near where I want to be....yes I have lost over 100lbs in a year but I feel like I have been given a new lease on life...I can run after my son, I can sit in any chair I want without it breaking, I feel like I am finally able to be myself again. I'm not sick all the time, and I only really sweat from a killer workout. For years I looked to other people to motivate me when I needed to motivate myself. I needed to love me...and for years I didn't. I was broken. But honey let me tell you..the new me has never loved living so much. My current goal is to lose 40 more pounds by the end of September and start working towards running my first half  marathon. 
Seeing this really makes me wonder...what took me so long to get to this place. I still struggle every day mentally with food and what are the right choices for me. This is so much more than a diet (that term just ticks me off). This is a lifestyle..and one that I am passionate about living.
I will leave you with this...Are you where you want to be in life? Is there something you have always wanted to accomplish? Don't wait for Monday, or a New Years resolution. Why not start now? It all starts with one choice, one day at a time. You are absolutely capable of doing anything your heart desires. It requires effort, and dedication on days all you want to do is sit on your butt...but I promise you it is worth it, and it is so rewarding. 




 Now go get after those goals! 


9 comments:

  1. Omg! This made me tear up. I have the same problem with food. I need to get my mind set on changing but its so hard. So proud of you!

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  2. Omg! This made me tear up. I have the same problem with food. I need to get my mind set on changing but its so hard. So proud of you!

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  3. Inspiration....that's what reading about your journey does for me. Thanks for that Mallarey! I look forward to learning more from you. :-)

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  4. So proud of you! You look great! Now you have inspired me.

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  5. ❤️❤️❤️. ❤️❤️❤️. Love. Love. Love. You are (and always have been) one of my favorite people. I'm so happy about the love you found ��

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  6. I watched you slim down all school year. You looked great when school was out. I probably won't recognize you when school starts in August. Keep it up! You are an inspiration for us all.

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  7. What an inspirational story! I want to know about the macros.

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  8. I don't know you, but I recognize you when I see you around. When I saw you the other day, I didn't see a woman who's had a weight loss struggle. I saw a beautiful, healthy, fit, happy woman. Congratulations on your personal success!!! ❤

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