Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Unintentional Silence

Hey Hey Friends!

Your girl is still alive, and believe it or not thriving. My blog is something that has been weighing on my heart a lot lately. In the past year I have let it go because I struggled with what content to share and if I even still had an audience for it. Then I realized I started this blog to document my journey so that I could reflect back on things, moments, and seasons in my life that have led me to where I am today. Obviously I have not been very good about that, haha! So in efforts to catch everyone up here it goes:

To date I have lost over 240 lbs through diet and exercise. Believe it or not I still have people that do not believe I did not have a gastric surgery, but whatevs.  One thing I pride myself in is being 100% honest about my journey.  I have fallen in and out of love with running. I have ran countless half-marathons and a full marathon. I fell in love with lifting weights all over again...its my therapy. There is something about totally exhausting yourself at the end of the day that keeps me going. I have learned one thing thus far...I can only control myself therefore there is no excuse for my nutrition and workouts to not be on point. I am currently still counting macro's (IIFYM) and have for over 2 years (Thanks to Poppy Locks). It allows me to eat in peace. This for me is huge because I still struggle with binge eating (which will be a later post).

Over the past year I have had 3 surgical procedures with Joshua Lemmon, MD at Regional Plastic Surgery in Richardson, TX. These procedures are something that I really had to think long and hard about. In May of 2018 I had a lower body lift done to remove excess skin from my abdomen and back. That procedure resulted in 16lbs of skin being removed and required me to stay two nights in the hospital. I did indeed have wound breakdown complications with this procedure thank landed me in the house almost all summer. In November of 2018 I had a bilateral brachioplasty (arm lift) as well as a mastopexy with breast augmentation (again just keeping it real).  All of these of course fixed the issues that I had due to extreme weight loss. I get asked over and over about them and judged frequently. They were the missing puzzle piece to giving me my life back. I would do them over and over again and I can not say enough good things about my plastic surgeon or my experience!

I am currently in the homeward stretch of reaching my ultimate goal weight. which in the beginning never seemed imaginable. For once in my life I am happy! I am happy with the woman I have become and I love life. Throughout my young adult life I associated happiness with being skinny and being small. What I have learned is that happiness is created by YOU regardless of your shape, size, financial situation, etc... Your outlook on life can move mountains. Being "skinny" is not something you can offer this world. What you can offer is kindness and love. Friends, love yourselves no matter what part of your journey or life you are in...give yourself grace. Remember it may be a bad day, but it is not a bad life!!